November 2016

My blood work continues to be within normal range, but there are some concerns about my appetite and weight loss. I feel about the same and haven't changed any of my activities, but food doesn't seem to be a priority.

During this month of Thanksgiving, God is showing me that while I am thankful for all He is doing and how far I have come I also have to Forgive, it is part of healing.

Some years ago, I came across a saying and I have it posted to remind me:

“Holding a GRUDGE ~ is letting someone live

Rent free ~ in your head”

The Lord has shown me that not forgiving others don’t harm them, but causes me to be miserable and lead to illnesses in my body. After praying, He shown me things from even my childhood that I have been holding.

(For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. Matthew 6:14)

My prayer: “Dear Lord help me to let go and forgive these people and situations.

Some of the people are not even living and those that are I want to

be able to face them with Your love in my heart. I sincerely ask you to

forgive me for allowing Satan to control that part of my mind for so long.

In Jesus name I thank you. Amen.”

(To the Lord our God belong mercies and forgivenesses, though we have rebelled against him; Daniel 9:9)
Without considering it, I had been rebelling against the Lord by holding on to these things. I thank Him for His forgiveness and I believe this was the beginning of a successful 15 hour trip in the backseat of a van with NO back pain. You see, Thanksgiving this year was at my brother’s and I thought about how miserable I might be, because sometimes I can’t even sit for a 2 hour meeting without getting up moving around. TYL for allowing me to make the trip both ways without even a pain pill. There were others in the vehicle that were sitting in individual seats that were complaining, but the Lord let that cramped backseat just fit me. The families were together again with the bonus of my niece's wedding. It was another blessed Thanksgiving season.

October 2016

TYL Even though I am not having treatments, it seems I still have a lot of doctor appointments.

My appointment with the eye doctor proved to be another “amazing” visit. There was hardly any change in my vision and the “white of your eyes are not as yellow”. This month I am claiming my healing and want there to be outward signs that others can see. TYL for continuing to show your faithfulness to me. (And in that day ye shall ask me nothing. Verily, verily, I say unto you, Whatsoever ye shall ask the Father in my name, he will give it you. John 16:23)

The Lord continue to allow me to testify to others of His goodness, I believe this is another way of testifying to myself. Sometimes keeping the faith and standing strong is hardest for me when I see others going through. I can become sympathetic with them and start feeling for illnesses. TYL for reminding me that my life is not my own, but a testimony of your grace, mercy and healing power.

(But none of these things move me, neither count I my life dear unto myself, so that I might finish my course with joy, and the ministry, which I have received of the Lord Jesus, to testify the gospel of the grace of God. Acts 20:24)

September 2016

TYL that as I continue “No Treatments” and seek you, you are  clearing my thoughts and my ability to concentrate on everyday business. (Commit thy works unto the Lord, and thy thoughts shall be established.  Proverbs 16:3)

9-20-16 TYL for the warning you sent last night in the form of a mouse. The mouse ran to the doorway but quickly turned and did not come in. (He heard the sound of the trumpet, and took not warning; his blood shall be upon him. But he that taketh warning shall deliver his soul. Ezekiel 33:5)  Today I received a call from my past and you helped me stay firm in my faith in you. I saw the mouse incident along with what was being said as a reminder of how you have been taking care of me and Chris. I was glad to hear that things in their life were getting better, but I did  not feel the urge to reconnect our lives. TYL for all of the blessings and people you have sent my way since this journey began. I can’t thank you enough. (I will bless the Lord at all times: his praise shall continually be in my mouth. Psalm 34:1)