November 2016

My blood work continues to be within normal range, but there are some concerns about my appetite and weight loss. I feel about the same and haven't changed any of my activities, but food doesn't seem to be a priority.

During this month of Thanksgiving, God is showing me that while I am thankful for all He is doing and how far I have come I also have to Forgive, it is part of healing.

Some years ago, I came across a saying and I have it posted to remind me:

“Holding a GRUDGE ~ is letting someone live

Rent free ~ in your head”

The Lord has shown me that not forgiving others don’t harm them, but causes me to be miserable and lead to illnesses in my body. After praying, He shown me things from even my childhood that I have been holding.

(For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. Matthew 6:14)

My prayer: “Dear Lord help me to let go and forgive these people and situations.

Some of the people are not even living and those that are I want to

be able to face them with Your love in my heart. I sincerely ask you to

forgive me for allowing Satan to control that part of my mind for so long.

In Jesus name I thank you. Amen.”

(To the Lord our God belong mercies and forgivenesses, though we have rebelled against him; Daniel 9:9)
Without considering it, I had been rebelling against the Lord by holding on to these things. I thank Him for His forgiveness and I believe this was the beginning of a successful 15 hour trip in the backseat of a van with NO back pain. You see, Thanksgiving this year was at my brother’s and I thought about how miserable I might be, because sometimes I can’t even sit for a 2 hour meeting without getting up moving around. TYL for allowing me to make the trip both ways without even a pain pill. There were others in the vehicle that were sitting in individual seats that were complaining, but the Lord let that cramped backseat just fit me. The families were together again with the bonus of my niece's wedding. It was another blessed Thanksgiving season.