1-3-15 Dear Lord as we enter into this new year I don’t know how these situations and I fit into your plan, but please walk with and carry me when needed. I am concerned about Chris if something happens to me first. But I believe you will not leave him in any harm. He is special to me and I know he is even more special to you. There are so many things to look forward to in this year, but I want to be in your will and be able to give you the glory through it all. Anything or anyone that are not a part of your plan for me, show me and help me be content with the outcome. I know you are really the one who takes care of all situations in my life, I just need to truly believe it in my heart, mind and spirit. (Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.)

1-15-15 Today I have my CT scan to determine if the two T.A.C.E have made any progress in shrinking the mass in my liver. (Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ: Romans 5:1)  No matter what the doctor’s verdict I yet know my Lord is with me. TYL for being with me and keeping my faith strong.

The doctor let me know that the T.A.C.E had not been as aggressive as he had hoped. They were not going to put me through another one of those procedures at this time. I was to come back next week to make sure all the wounds were healing and I was feeling better. As I said before those procedures left me weak, nauseated, unable to eat, I lost about 20 pounds during those 2 months. It was hard going to work, but with the Lord’s help I did. Even though I had been dieting by decreasing the amount of food I ate, people noticed the quick weight loss.

1-22-15 Today would be my last visit with my doctor for a while. He suggested I have a visit and talk with my regular doctor about upcoming options. So, it was time to pull out all of the weapons of prayer that I could and contact those I believe would “Pray without ceasing. (1 Thessalonians 5:17)”  for and with me. As family and friends began to pray there seemed to be no peace in my home life. I began to want to stay at work, even after we closed, so I didn't have to face the turmoil. The stress was so draining that about 5:00 p.m. I would began feeling worse and by the time I got home all I wanted to do was lay down. There wasn’t any physical abuse, but the mental abuse of thinking I had help and didn’t was discouraging.

1-23-15 Today is my birthday. TYL!!! With everything that has happened in the last year, good and bad, I am glad to be here. I want to celebrate. I want to be happy and healthy, it didn’t happen like that so I’m just happy to be. I may not be pain or stress free, but I’m here. I have family and friends, a job, food, clothing and shelter. I have a  lot to be thankful for. I have the Lord in my heart and walking this journey with me. TYL. (But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. Isaiah 40:31)