May 2015 Another month of waiting, praying and LIVING. I have decided that I am a puzzle to the medical field, or maybe there really isn’t anything they can do for me. Just waiting until next month's CT scan and its results. Whatever the situation, I must keep my faith in God and try to correct any wrongs in my life. TYL for this chance. (But without faith it is impossible to please Him: for he that cometh to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of them that diligently seek Him.) Hebrews 11:6

6-4-15 Today I get another CT scan to see how the T.A.C.E. treatments from last year are working.

Sitting and waiting, looking at the people as they come and go

I realize how precious life is and how uncertain.

There are no age barriers, no race barriers, no economic barriers

We all share a common bond,

A need to do what we can to extend our lives.

We are here for help, 

We are here to start, continue and maintain treatment. 

Unexpected, unbelievable, unwanted, 

But we are in a lot of ways, though weak in body,  

Stronger than we were, in spirit

This fight will increase our faith or we will lose it altogether

WE ARE FIGHTING…WE are walking witnesses of our FAITH

(Fight the good fight of faith, lay hold on eternal life, where unto thou art also called, and hast professed a good profession before many witnesses. 1 Timothy 6:12)

6-11-15 The results are in, they are not as good as we had hoped. The mass had not increased in size, but it had not shown the amount of decrease the doctors had expected. So, where do we go from here. I think about all of the times God has delivered me, family members and friends from various situations, I believe that there is a plan. “Because if God allowed it to be where it is, so you can’t operate, He has a plan. I must believe this and give Him the glory”, these were my words to the doctor. (Ye are my witnesses, saith the Lord, and my servant whom I have chosen: that ye may know and believe me, and understand that I am He: before me there was no God formed, neither shall there be after me. Isaiah 43:10)  After leaving the doctor’s office, I cried. Many thoughts crossed my mind and who and how I would tell them these results. It has already been over a year since I was first diagnosed, so every day is a blessing. TYL. I must think of it like I do with Chris - Every day is an additional day to enjoy with him the best I can.

Love

Is Life’s ups and downs brings out the best and worst in people

For You will definitely know where Love is

Ever

When I told those that lived in the home with me the results and my plan to wait until August to start constant Chemotherapy treatments there was silence. My son decided to give me the analogy of a car that had a leaking oil hose. “Would you continue to drive it and wait until it completely broke down or would you get it fixed as soon as possible.”

Flashback: Last year when I was first diagnosed, I heard a commercial about the

Cancer Treatment of America. I called, but because of the insurance I

had at the time through my job, I was not eligible.  In June of this year the

company changed insurance carriers and this one was accepted at the

center. TYL I felt it was time to make an appointment and get a second

opinion.